Is our universe sitting on a table?

Will there ever come a day when I no longer think about The little people in Chester Park? That incident has made me what I am today mixed with a thousand pieces of life. Today I am a Grandmother and I love being called Granny. I picked to be called Granny because of the Beverly Hillbillies, I thought Granny was a cool old dame. My blog is about strange events and dreams but I haven't had a dream or incident in a long time to write about. There is one thing that drives me crazy though. That is space, the universe!!!!! Have you ever thought about how vast it is, how deep is space, anyway? It's deep, really deep!!!!! It goes on and on. Can there be an end? If so what would the end look like? Is our universe sitting on some astrologers table in a bigger galaxy somewhere and is that galaxy sitting on a table in an even bigger galaxy? If I travel through space far enough will I run into God? Can you imagine God's face when he gets a load of me at his front door. When he asks me what I am doing there, I'll explain "I was flying through space looking for the end". With a belly laugh he will probably spin me around and send me home. There are people who don't believe in God, yet they are okay with the whole idea of space and all the mystery that surrounds it. For me it is easier to believe in God. I may not be able to see him with my eyes but I can feel him in my heart. I know that one day in the distant future I will meet him, and when that day comes I will ask him, "Is our universe sitting on a table?"

reincarnation, real or fiction

I couldn't sleep tonight, I guess my mind was just too full of thoughts to go to sleep. I have questions about the after-life. I don't know how I feel about reincarnation, the possibility of it bothers the heck out of me. What if I was a man in my last life, was I gay because I really love being a woman. I like being me, I don't want to be someone else. I don't want to even think of being blonde or taller or shorter ( well maybe taller). Okay taller with great legs but the rest of me just as I am. I would want to keep all of my flaws, well maybe I would want straight hair rather than curly. Well I love being Italian, I wouldn't want to change that. And I want to keep my husband and my family!!! That is a must!!!

I understand, from what I have read, when we are reincarnated we get to chose who we will be and what we will experience in order to learn and grow. Well I want the fairy tale. I think I have learned quite a bit in this life so I think I would like to come back rich and happy and healthy and give to the poor and just have the greatest life. Who wants to join me? I'll but a yacht and invite you all. I'll wait for you or you can wait for me in the after-life and we can all come back together and have a great time.

I grew up believing that we get one shot at life. The concept of having other lives is disturbing. Deja vu is suppose to be the memory of a past life experience. We have all had that happen. I wonder if I am just trying to convince myself so I won't be traumatized in the after-life. I would hate to get to the pearly gates and have St. Peter tell me "don't unpack, you're going back". Bummer!!!!!!!

Angels in the midst

I remember, back when I was in my late twenties, having a very unusual encounter. I was in a mall waiting for my cousin to pick out a card for someone. I decided to sit out on a bench by the Hallmark store. I was tired and was just not thinking of anything in particular when a nice Afro-American man, about my age, came over to me. He didn't say a word he just looked at me with a kind smile. he took his hand and gently placed it to my cheek and carressed it briefly. I felt no fear. It was just a gentle touch and a sense of peace. That is all it was, a moment of gentle peace. As he walked away he smiled at me and he was gone.

The reason I am journaling this is I am reading a book about Angels written by psychic Sylvia Browne. She says that sometimes angels come in human form. Sometimes just to reassure you in time of trials or to give a sense of peace or to help in some capacity. It was definitely a peaceful experience for me. Was he an angel? I'm not sure. But it didn't hurt!!!

Murder in the cards

I have tried to write this story several times but have had a problem each time. The words keep disappearing on me. It is as if I am not suppose to tell this story. It just makes me all the more determined to do so. There may be no paragraphs and the words may drift to another line but bare with me, I am telling this story!!!!.............My friend Fran and I enjoyed anything about the occult, palm reading, tarot cards, etc. We both bought a set of tarot cards and read the meanings of all the cards, we used everything but our ESP to read people, after all it was just for the fun of it..................Fran's aunts asked that we come to their card night and read for them. We arrived that following Monday night, her aunts were all excited to hear what we had to say. The aunts got two readings one from Fran and one for me. It was Aunt Vitor's turn, I started reading her cards and saw that her husband would become very ill and possibly die because of another woman. I couldn't tell her what I saw. I asked her if her husband had seen a doctor recently and she said no. I told her that it might be wise if he did and then proceded to change the focus on other things............................After we left I asked Fran if she had any pecular reading with her Aunt Vitor she said yes, she saw the same thing that I saw and talked her way around it so as not to upset her aunt.................................................................It may have been about two weeks after that night that Aunt Vitor's neighbor and her children were kidnapped by her husband, there was evidence of bloodshed, so it didn't look good. They were very close to the young woman and her family and it was very upsetting for them. There was a 24 hour police watch on their home in case the husband came back. Aunt Vitor's husband couldn't take it, he had a massive heart attack and almost died. The Missing children were found several weeks later they were safe but the mother was killed and found buried on the grounds of the ex-husband property.......Fran and I realized that the tarot cards were not something to play with. It was meant for those who understand them. We still used them on occasion but I eventually got rid of all paraphenalia............................ Let life be one big surprise, who needs to know the future anyway.

Hello, is there anybody out there!!!!!

Have you ever wondered if there are others out there from other worlds? My encounter with the "Little People" has had me wondering for years. Could there be alien life? Are they out there or here in a kind of time warp.

I had a dream one night, in my dream I was on a flat bed and felt drugged. I couldn't move. I tried, but when I did I heard a voice in my head telling me to be still and not to be afraid. I managed to see forms, though my eyes were clouded. The forms were quite large, about 7' tall, with no hair on their heads and their heads were large in comparison to their bodies and oddly shaped, not perfect like you see in movies of alien beings, also their eyes were very small. They sent me a telepathic message telling me that they would not harm me and would let me go when they were done with some tests.

I was a young woman when I had this dream but I never forgot it. Some dreams feel real and this was one of them. So it makes me think, could I have tapped into a universal conscience. I have been told that knowledge is out there for the taking, if you are curious enough you can tap in.

I have a curiousity for the unknown. Take the bible for example. God actually talked to Adam and Eve , Moses etc. It must have scared the crap out of them. And how about the angels appearing here and there and assending into the sky, how did they travel? How about those halos, were they maybe space helmets? Jesus came out of his grave and walked among his friends then rose into heaven. How did he do that!!! One guy in the bible was lifted into heaven on a fiery chariot. Or was that a space ship? Is it really so bizarre that there may be alien life forms?

There are many mysteries out there just waiting to be solved. Could God be from a world not so different from here? Could heaven be a planet? A perfect place with no disease or evil of any kind. Does heaven have to be a place with clouds and angels with wings? I believe that God is real and I believe that Jesus is his son, but that doesn't mean that I understand where they came from.

The essence remains

Recently someone close to me passed away. She was a wonderful person, she loved her family and loved life. When someone touchs your life they don't go away in your heart. Their spirit will live with every thought of them. They may be gone but their essence remains.

I had wonderful parents, they left me memories of love and tradition and family. These good memories give me stability and a sense of confidence that I am loved and lovable. When I need quiet comfort I think of my Mom and I feel her essence.

There is comfort in knowing that there is more to life than this. Heaven is real, although it is bazaar when you think too deeply about it. I had my doubts many years ago, I prayed about it one night and God sent me a dream. I died in my dream and I remember feeling okay about it, I realized that it didn't hurt. It happened in the blink of an eye. I felt a sense of calm and knew that my family would be okay. When I looked around I was familiar with my surroundings. I knew where to go, ahead of me was a golden light shining so brightly that I couldn't deny what it was. As I followed this light through a tunnel I woke up.

I will remember my loved ones, Mandy, Adeline, Carmela, Julie, Howard, Peggy, they are gone but their essence remains.

The love log

Television can be very hypnotic. Before you know it hours will pass and it's bedtime. I'm watching TV and I see a man sitting in a chair and demonstrating how to do self-hypnosis in order to gain euphoria. As I watch I realize that I could do the same. After the show I sat down and tried it myself. I closed my eyes and took myself to this wonderful place and became instantly addicted to it. I felt an entity inside of me. How could this be a bad thing when it felt so good. The more I hypnotized myself the more addicted I became to the feeling.

Many of my friends saw the show so I decided to have a party so we could all share this wonderful thing we created in ourselves. I was the first to go under and others followed, something felt wrong inside of me. The entity was not so kind this time. I could feel pain in my foot like a sharp knife was cutting me and pressing upward. I felt like I had given up control of myself, I needed to find inner strength. I needed the strength of God to save me. The pain was intense and I was using every oounce of my own will power to overcome this thing inside of me. I decided to say a prayer that was taught to me at Para-study. "Nothing can come near me that isn't sent from God in love and peace" I repeated it over and over again until I regained consciousness.

As I went to my friends I was horrified. I could see that they were in pain, some were showing signs of torture, blood was dripping from their feet. I could see their tortured bodies crumbling and bleeding. I couldn't panic. I had to find an answer. Someone in the house had to be awake. Someone pure of heart. As I entered the living room I saw two people, a young man and woman. They were not familiar to me but that was not important. I had to save my friends. Inside of me I felt that I knew what had to be done. I prayed to God that my idea would work.

I took the most perfect log that I had. I love a cozy fire even in the summer, just turn up the air conditioner. Anyway, getting back to the story.....I give the log to the young man and ask the pretty young woman to place her hands on top of the log. I instructed them to stare into each others eyes. They did not question me, they just did it. As they stared into each others eyes I could see the love between them. A beautiful bright light shone around them. As time passed I felt a calmness come over me, I looked around and all my friends were back to their old selves. Love truly is powerful.

As I awoke from my dream I knew I had been given a sign, a message maybe from God. Looking for temporary happiness can be deadly. Drugs and alcohol are so hypnotic and fun in the beginning but they are killers. It not only hurts you but everyone around you. And the result from addiction is death. You need to love yourself enough, you need to love others!!!